After the long wait…. I’m finally back… hehehe… kidding aside... it took me quite sometime to get back to blogging…
A lot of things had been happening in my life lately…..
Maybe it’s just too much for me to handle…..
Well my life is still the same with some minor upgrades and major repairs.
One would be the death of my dearest grandmother last may….. Actually the start of the summer was very grueling for me and my family…. We no longer enjoy the benefits of life thoroughly because having a sick relative that you love …. Suffering all the pain and you can’t do anything about it… it really sucks…. If only I could be the one lying in bed taking in all the pain just not to see her suffer like that… I would definitely take her place without any hesitations…. I cannot bare to see her looking like that…. I feel so helpless… I just realize back then that even though you have everything in life… family… money… career…. Love life… if it’s your time you can’t do anything about it... not even if you have loads of money to spend….. Our life means everything…. Without it we are nothing…. Non-existent to this world….
Losing a relative is tough….. As well as losing a friend whom you really trust and valued like your real sister…..
I just realized that my friends were right….. There are only two things that could make or break your friendship… MONEY & RELATIONSHIP….. I thought it was just a mere saying… or just a line in some movies… but I’ve proven it to myself… all the while I thought… she did change like what she is trying to make me believe... but what I thought was REAL was totally a FRAUD…. I once told her that she just have to tell me the truth… no more lies… no more pretensions…. Is that too much to ask…. That was the second time around and she haven’t learned anything form it yet… we cannot have the best of both worlds… but my point with that honesty that i'm looking forward from her, will definitely buy her respect from me…. But what happened…. She opted to be the same person; she was once before….. right now…. I still wish her well…. I hope that whatever’s going on in her life… she would be happy with it…. Not all people could understand the way I think… I hope karma won’t go her way at all…. Coz even if we are already apart from each other as friends….. I still don’t want to see her suffer like the way I did….
But with all of my loses in life…. I still haven’t yet giving up…. As each day pass by… I’m happy and contented with what I have right now…. My life… my family…. My friends… my work…. And my boyfriend…. I may not be the perfect person in this whole world but i’m trying to be at my best….. without them, I am nothing… without them standing by me… i’m worthless…. I owe them a lot….
A lot of things had been happening in my life lately…..
Maybe it’s just too much for me to handle…..
Well my life is still the same with some minor upgrades and major repairs.
One would be the death of my dearest grandmother last may….. Actually the start of the summer was very grueling for me and my family…. We no longer enjoy the benefits of life thoroughly because having a sick relative that you love …. Suffering all the pain and you can’t do anything about it… it really sucks…. If only I could be the one lying in bed taking in all the pain just not to see her suffer like that… I would definitely take her place without any hesitations…. I cannot bare to see her looking like that…. I feel so helpless… I just realize back then that even though you have everything in life… family… money… career…. Love life… if it’s your time you can’t do anything about it... not even if you have loads of money to spend….. Our life means everything…. Without it we are nothing…. Non-existent to this world….
Losing a relative is tough….. As well as losing a friend whom you really trust and valued like your real sister…..
I just realized that my friends were right….. There are only two things that could make or break your friendship… MONEY & RELATIONSHIP….. I thought it was just a mere saying… or just a line in some movies… but I’ve proven it to myself… all the while I thought… she did change like what she is trying to make me believe... but what I thought was REAL was totally a FRAUD…. I once told her that she just have to tell me the truth… no more lies… no more pretensions…. Is that too much to ask…. That was the second time around and she haven’t learned anything form it yet… we cannot have the best of both worlds… but my point with that honesty that i'm looking forward from her, will definitely buy her respect from me…. But what happened…. She opted to be the same person; she was once before….. right now…. I still wish her well…. I hope that whatever’s going on in her life… she would be happy with it…. Not all people could understand the way I think… I hope karma won’t go her way at all…. Coz even if we are already apart from each other as friends….. I still don’t want to see her suffer like the way I did….
But with all of my loses in life…. I still haven’t yet giving up…. As each day pass by… I’m happy and contented with what I have right now…. My life… my family…. My friends… my work…. And my boyfriend…. I may not be the perfect person in this whole world but i’m trying to be at my best….. without them, I am nothing… without them standing by me… i’m worthless…. I owe them a lot….
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