...never ending friendships tested through and through....

better days!!!! :) aren't over yet :)

mah friends!!!!

SURVEY ULI!!!!

• Are you single, married, or taken?
• >it's kinda complicated
• Are you inlove at the moment?
• >yes... you could even ask my friends
• With?
• > it's complicated!!!!
• Have you ever had a bad relationship?
• > yes :)
• How old were you when you started dating?
• > 16
• Are you unpredictable?
• > sometimes...
• Do you like surprises?
• > yes
• You think friends can become lovers?
• > yes...
• u think lovers can become friends?
• > yes...in time
• Have you ever had an ex you wanted to kill?
• >la naman
• How is she/he now?
• > i think he's ok
• What is your message for him/her?
• > it's not my loss....
• Have you ever been hurt?
• > YES.. a lot of times and still counting....
• Have you ever hurt anyone?
• > OPO!
• Do you forgive and forget?
• > OPO! tama b?
• Fling or long term relationships?
• > long term definitely!!!
• Are you easy to be loved?
• > i think yes...
• Are you a good friend?
• > yes... u jst have to ask around...
• Are you sociable?
• > yes.. but i'm still a self proclaimed introvert!!!
• Do you try to please everyone?
• > no
• Do you want everyone to like you?
• > ideally yes...but if they don't like me...its fine with me :)
• What's the shortest relationship you've been in?
• > 1 month
• What would you want to say to that special person?
• > I hope its you... im always here no matter what happens....

KABILUGAN NG BUWAN... AY BUWAN NG KALIBUGAN... hehehehe

ANOTHER STRESSFUL DAY THAT ENDED UP NICELY..... ALL PLANS WERE SET.. BUT TO HELL WITH ALL THOSE PLANS.... HEHEH.... NUTHIN REALLY DID PUSH THRU... OR I MAY SAY..... NOT ALL PLANS PUSHED THRU..... WELL..... JUST THE SAME..... WE STILL ENJOY THE NIGHT.... WE STILL HAD FUN... EVEN FOR A COUPLE OF HOURS LATE....MISHAPS AND COINCIDENCES HAPPENED THAT NIGHT.... LAUGHTRIPS... KILIG MOMENTS.... MAJOR CHIKAHAN..... CHAKA BELLES DELIGHT.... ALL JOINED INTO ONE.... A NIGHT WITH OLD FRIENDS... NEW FRIENDS... AND MERE ACQUAINTANCES..... A NIGHT OF FUN UNDER THE FULL MOON.... :)

COOL RIDES @ PICC FORUM!!!!

phoebe's alphabet....

• A - Act your age?>> grow up people!!
• B - Born on what day of the week?>> I’m not really sure… al I know is that I was born on July 27, 1983 sometime around in the afternoon...
• C - Chore you hate?>> hand washing clothes ….. good thing we already have washing machines…
• D - Dad's name?>> victor….
• E - Essential makeup item?>> lip balm or cheek and lip stain by body shop….F - Favorite director?>> steven spielberg….
• G - Gold or silver?>> white gold… does it count? Hehhe :PH - Hometown?>> durty south…. :PI - Instruments you play?>> ummm I really dunno….
• J - Job title?>> general manager?!! Sounds family?!!! :P
• K - Kids?>> none as of the moment….
• L - Living arrangements?>> with my loving familia J
• M - Mom's name?>> marcelina
• N - Number of pillows you sleep with?>> 3
• O - Overnight hospital stays?>> I don’t remember…. L
• P - Phobia?>> none as of the moment….
• Q - Quote you like?>> it ain’t over, til it’s over….
• R - Religious affiliation?>> ummmm…. Lemme think about that…. J
• S - Siblings?>> 2 sisters and my big bro J (legitimate side of the family) 6 sisters. ½ bro…. J (lligitimate side of the family) just ask me if u don’t understand the situation…. J
• T - Time you wake up?>> as early as 6 am
• U - Unique habit?>> ummmm… lemme think on that one as well…J
• V - Vegetable you refuse to eat?>>dami eh... L
• W - Worst habit?>> lemme think on that one as well.. J
• X - X-rays you've had?>> I forgot… L
• Y - Yummy food you make?>> spaghetti, cookies and shrimp with lemon-butter sauce, shepherd’s pie…. Chocolate schip cookies from the peninsula manila…etc….
• Z - Zipper u'ved opened?>> my board shorts….ummm … do I have to tell?!

confession room once again....

few bottles of beer and soda.... good sounds... good movie.... good friends.... conversations that led to confessions..... confessions that led to reality.... bonding with people who understands you.... who sees you when your in deep shit.... who tries to be strong for you no matter what.... even if you think you carry the whole world as a burden at your back.... realization that the problem that you have is nothing compared to what they have right now.... to what they are thinking about.... comparison wise.... i'm very thankful for already passing those stages of having sleepless nights... every single night that i was so confused, every single night that i feel so alone, that there is no one to turn to or to lean on..... troubled and crazed..... stunned..... spaced out..... insecured..... but i know that even though i am okay now..... there are a lot of things going on my mind.... a lot of questions yet to be answered.... but i know all things will work out fine..... and i hope that with my friends as well, they will find the answers that they are looking for.... i may not be a perfect friend to them... i cannot offer everything to them or even to satisfy their needs.... but i do assure them that when time comes that people would turn their backs on them.... I WONT.....

a point of no return.....

the time that i decided to start anew.... i told to myself this would be a start of of a new chapter in my life... a point of no return... no regrets / no worries / no pretentions.... a life full of life / energy / passion and compassion.... a life with my family / my friends and to all the people i knew all throughout my lifetime.... spending every single minute with them and loving it.... a new life... a brand new phoebe.... =P

another night with my friends.....

spending a night with my girlfriends is quite a treat for me... i don't know the main reason behind it... but all i know is that i just had a wonderful time with them.... stressed with work and all.... maybe that would be the real reason behind it..... pure laughter and trippings when i'm with them, forgetting the stress from a day's work.... forgetting all the problems that we have in our lives even for a couple of hours.... and even talking about it after a few sips from our glasses of buzz..... another day had gone by..... another day with our favorite horse in town... *lol* kidding aside.... a lot of conversations was made.... a lot of silence was also present.... but i know deep inside our hearts and minds.... we are all hurting inside out... diferent problems in life that we 3 share to each other... different problems in our lives that we can't even resolve personally.... my room.... our confession box.... our hideaway when we are drenched with all the shit in our lives... the place where we seek security..... where we seek comfort from our dear friends who have been tested through time..... the comfort of home away from home.... well to all my friends who is out there..... for what its worth.... im really thankful of having you guys in my life... you just don't know how much it means to me....

muchos gracias....

these are just some people who have shown me how to be a real person inside and out... these people was there when i was in my downfall....they are there to correct my mistakes... they never left me hanging..... thank you for everyhing.....i love you guys..... a lot of people touched my life... and the space here isn't enough for me to post everything... bu to those people i haven't mentioned in this post... thank you very much from the bottom of my heart.... :)

out of the blue....

out of the blue... im just wondering when would be the right time.... the right time to dream.. the right time to speak... the right time to think... the right time to imagine things as it is.... it wouldn't be the same every single minute of the day... it wouldn't be the same as long as the world turn in circles.... as simple as it seems.... a question yet unanswered... an answer not yet assured..... the world definitely revolves in circles but it doesn't say that we should be on top of that circle....

The Best Version Of You....

Manila International Airport, 2:00 am. It's been two years since shehad last seen the Manila International Airport. Not much has changed.Her last memory of this airport was when Miguel dropped her off. Shewas on her way to New York to pursue a career in Wall Street."Promise me something will you? Please don't get married until I comeback?" She jokingly told him as she lifted up her backpack."LOL. Very funny. Ikaw ang mag-promise. Promise me you won't run offwith some nerdy economist in the next two years.""Let's see, shall we. Bye, Miguel. I'll call you as soon I get to New York."That was her last memory in this place. The warm Manila air made herfeel a bit restless and yet she feels excited. This is the first timein two years she'll be seeing Miguel again. She was thoughtfully goingthrough the immigration counters, thinking of how much she missedseeing Miguel. How different would he be now? Sure he sends herregular weekly e-mails and pictures but being the busy person that shehad always been, she didn't get the time to chat with him and buy awebcam.She's finally out. "Where is Miguel?" She wondered. "Ah there!" sheexclaimed when she saw the silver gray Nissan Patrol parked near theexit. TGW926. Yup, that's Miguel alright. Her heart was leaping aheadof her as the driver got off."Hey! I missed you!" He said, as he hugged her."I missed you too. So much." She said, as she hugged him back. It waswarm. It felt good to be back. It felt great to feel his hug."Let me get those." He said pointing at her luggage. "Then we'll havemore time for hugging and chika.""Okay."Edsa, 4:30 am. Miguel's cellphone rings. Mama, the name flashes on the screen."You should really get that.""No, you should get that. She's been waiting for you. She insist thatwe go straight to her after I pick you up form the airport. She alsoinsist that you spend tomorrow with her." Miguel was talking about hermother. Miguel was an only child and his mother wanted a daughter. Shewould often tell Bea that since she doesn't have a mom anymore, sheshould let Tita Doris be her second mom. She loved Bea as if she wereher own daughter."Hello? Yes, Tita. How are you nap po?... ah opo. Miguel already toldme. Sige po. Okay po. I'll see you later." She turns off the phone andlooks out the window. The phone rings again, this time the name"Sugar" flashes on the screen. Hmmm, "Sugar." He was quick. He got ahold of the phone and answered it. "Hello. Yeah. Pauwi na. I'm withher na. Yeah. Tomorrow, I will. Promise. We'll see you tomorrow."We? Is that supposed to mean me and him? See Sugar? Who is Sugar,anyway? "Who was that?" she couldn't keep herself from asking. "Sugarha?""I'll introduce her tomorrow. Uwi muna tayo sa bahay. By the way,kamusta na si Edward?""Edward?""Oo, si Edward, naalala mo yung boyfriend na iniwan mo sa New York?Anong klase ka ba naming girlfriend? Kaya hindi kita niligawan eh.Baka makalimutan mo rin ako.""Ah si Edward. Hayun. Nasa New York." Miguel has met Edward when hecame to New York to give Bea a surprise visit. He seems a nice guy.Not the geeky economist Miguel pictured Bea would end up with. He isactually a cool guy and loves Bea a lot."He called me up, a week ago, asking a lot of things about you. Parangmay balak ataā€¦""Balak na?""Tell me, did he propose to you? He sounded like he was going topropose to you kasi.""Ah look, here we are at Tita Doris."At Tita Doris', 4:45 am. A pleasantly plump woman enters the livingroom. She was in her mid-fifties, a familiar warm smile and two openarms. She welcomed Bea, gave her a big hug and kissed her on thecheek. "Hay anak, kamusta ka na? Na-miss na kita. Pinakain ka ba nitosi Miguel?""Opo, Tita." She looked around. Not much has changed in this house.She remembers spending her college days in this house. She rememberssinking into Tita Doris' arms when her mom died. She remembers onlygood things about this woman. She can't remember a time when she hadbeen unkind to her and yes, she loves her like her own mother."Iha, sabihan mo nga yang si Miguel. Sabihin mo 'wag padalos-dalos magdesisyon.""Po?""Mama naman. Let Bea rest. I'll tell her everything tomorrow." Miguelinterrupted his mother before she can spill the beans."Ha? What was that all about?" Bea was curious."Bukas na lang.""Okay. Tita, if it's okay I'll go rest now." She hugged her, andproceeded to climb the stairs. Miguel followed her carrying herluggage."Alam mo I missed this house. Uy sino ba si Sugar? Tsaka bakit parangworried nanay mo sa iyo?""Bukas na. Sugar is having lunch here.""Hmmm, intriguing, pero sige. Bukas na." They were both standing asthe door to the guest room. "Alam mo, it's really good to be back inthis house. I'll see you tomorrow."Tita Doris' 10:00 am. She woke up, sunlight flooding her bedroom. Shewas able to rest. She got up, arranged the bed sheets and took a nice,cold shower. Minutes later, she was down at the garden having brunchwith Tita Doris."Hi! Tita. Where is Miguel?""Sinundo si Sugar.""Sino ba yang Sugar na yan? Nai-intriga na ako.""Iha, I'll let Miguel tell you who Sugar is. Promise me something,though. Whatever happens you'll always be my daughter, Bea?"She felt scared. Why was Tita Doris suddenly serious? "Opo naman.""Anyway, iha. I heard from Miguel your boyfriend sounded like he wasgoing to propose a week ago. Did he propose?"Bea looked at her hands, bare of any engagement ring. She looked atTita Doris and smiled. Before she could answer, Miguel showed up. Withhim is a woman she had not seen before. She was of medium frame,shoulder length hair and looked very feminine."Sugar, the sister I never had, Bea. Bea, Sugar, my fiancĆ©e`." It feltas if somebody had thrown cold water on her. His what? Blood rushed toher head. She blushed. Her cheeks felt very warm. She couldn'tswallow. Her heart beating a hundred beats per minute."Your what?" She looked at Miguel, blushing then suddenly white aswith shock. "I'm sorry, Sugar but this is quite a surprise. Miguel hasnever mentioned you in any of his e-mails," she said as she looked atSugar with a confused look. She looked at Tita Doris, she looked backas if she was consoling her."Yeah, I got engaged. I'm keeping my promise. I'm getting married onSaturday. O di ba you're here so in essence I've kept my promise."She managed to smile faintly. She hugged Miguel and congratulated him.She even managed to tell Sugar "You got a catch here, girl. Take goodcare of him or else I will snatch him under your nose." It sounded asif she was just joking, turning over a very important possession toit's next owner. In the deepest recesses of her person, she knew shemeant it."He told me a lot of nice things about you." Sugar said, smiling ather as if they had been friends for the longest time."I'm sure he has."Lunch was served. All of Bea's favorite Filipino dishes. She and Sugarspent time chatting the afternoon away, looking at Bea's and Miguel'scollege photos and yearbooks. She found out that Sugar likes most ofthe things she does. They both came from the same high school. As shetried to get to know Sugar better during their afternoon chat, sherealized that not only was she perfect for Miguel, she also seemedlike the best gal pal Bea could find. They talked about the weddingdetails, the dress, the ring, the shoes, the tiara. They like almostthe same places, the same styles, the same shops. She told Sugar theyshould do shopping marathon together. Had it been another day, shewould be telling herself that this is really a great opportunity tofind someone who understands her shopping needs. Except that this isnot one of those daysā€¦ Except that this woman, this perfect, femininegirlfriend was Miguel's fiancĆ©e`.Bea's phone rings. The name Boyfriend flashes."You should really get that" Sugar told Bea."Yeah, I guess I should. Hello? Yes? I'm good. I'm here at Miguel's.Oh I have in front of me Sugar, Miguel's fiancĆ©e`." The words almostgot stuck in her throat, but she still managed to give Sugar a smile."Listen, I'll call you later. I have very good news for you."Miguel sat down beside Bea. Sugar was looking at them and asked "Sotell me? Was there never a time the two of you were more thanPlatonic?" Bea and Miguel looked at each other then looked at theirown hands. Miguel's gaze turned to Sugar. He answered "Of course not.Bea and I were never like that.""As in?" Sugar inquired."LOL, oo naman. She was a handful. Too much to handle for me. I can'tkeep up with her. She's never stands still." Miguel looked at Bea andsmiled, his eyes turning into slits as his dimples gloriously show."I guess that's the way for you. But not for Edward." Bea replied,with a little hint of disappointment."Okay lang yun. Edward is tough enough." Miguel was still smiling."Wait, speaking of Edward. I need to call him."Bea left the garden and went up to her room to call Edward. "Hello?Edward. Here goes. Yes. The answer is Yes."*********The wedding went well. It was one of the most elegant weddings she hadseen. Sugar had everything covered and she was a very beautiful,blushing bride."I, Miguel, take you, Sugar, as my friend and love, beside me andapart from me, in laughter and in tears, in conflict and tranquility,asking that you be no other than yourself, love what I know of you,trusting what I do not know yet, in all the ways that life may findus."Bea felt a stab of pain hitting her heart. She slowly got up, walkedaway from the spectators. Tears streaming down her flushed cheeks.**********Bea is once again on her way to the airport. Miguel is driving forher, this time with a wedding ring on his left finger."Hay, here we go again. I'm driving you to the airport. Kailan nanaman kaya tao magkikita?""Ewan ko. Tell me something," her tone all too serious. "What was itthat you love about Sugar? How did you know she was the one?" Migueljust smiled. "Dali na ano? Malay mo I need to decide in a couple ofdays dib a?""You know what I love about her? The same things I loved about youbefore. The only difference is that she's not as ambitious as you are.When you left for New York two years ago, I knew I don't have a placein the life you've chosen. I don't blame you for that. You're good inyour field and I thought to myself that it's your right to move onwithout me. Moving away was a decision you made for yourself. I knowthis sounds silly and you might nag me about it but I found the betterversion of you in Sugar. She's so much like you in so many ways butthe only difference is she loves me more than you do."She wanted to cry the tears she had kept as he witnessed him say hisvows, but kept her composure. She just chuckled a laugh. How could hemove on without her? Why was it easy for him and not for her? As shegot off the car, she gave Miguel one last hug. This time she felt herheart heavy."I guess this is goodbye?" she told Miguel."Wait, I'm not letting you out until you answer question. Did Edward propose?"Bea showed Miguel her left hand. In it was a one carat diamondsolitaire ring set in platinum. "Yes."Miguel let out a sigh and congratulated her. As Miguel turned his gazefrom the steering wheel to Bea's face, he saw a single tear fall fromher right eye and then she said, "If it gives any consolation. Edwardwas the best version of you that I can find in New York."

my life as it is.....

now i just realized that life is too short not to take advantage of.... as simple or as complicated it may be.... we should be thankful for every minute that we have.. every second that we waste... or even every hour that we spend to unnecessary things.... life is definitely too short...

These are my songs that i can relate to.....

For I'll Be Over You - Toto
Some people lives their dreamsSome people close their eyesSome people's destinyPasses by
There are no guaranteesThere are no alibisThat's how our love must beDon't ask why
It takes some time God knows how longI know that I can forget you
CHORUS:As soon as my heart stops breakin' Anticipatin'As soon as forever is through I'll be over you
Remembering times gone byPromises we once madeWhat are the reasons whyNothin' stays the same
There were the nights Holdin' you closeSomeday I'll try to forget them
CHORUS
[bridge]
As soon as my heart stops breakin'Anticipatin'Someday I'll be over you
As soon as my heart stops breakin'Anticipatin'Someday I'll be over you
As soon as my heart...
I CAN’T MAKE YOU LOVE ME
Turn down the lightsTurn down the bedTurn down these voicesinside my head
Lay down with meTell me no liesJust hold me close,don't patronize
Don't patronize me
Cause I can't make you love meif you don'tYou can't make your heart feelsomething it won'tHere in the darkin these final hoursI will lay down my heartAnd I'll feel the powerbut you won'tNo, you won'tCause I can't make you love meif you don't
I'll close my eyesthen I won't seethe love you don't feelwhen you're holding me
Morning will comeand I'll do what's rightjust give me till thento give up this fightand I will give up this fight
Cause I can't make you love meif you don'tYou can't make your heart feelsomething it won'tHere in the darkin these final hoursI will lay down my heartAnd I'll feel the powerbut you won'tNo, you won'tCause I can't make you love meif you don't

LET’S WAIT A WHILE
There's something I want to tell youThere's something I think that you should knowIt's not that I shouldn't really love youLet's take it slowWhen we get to know each otherAnd we're both feeling much strongerThen let's try to talk it overLet's wait awhile longerLet's wait awhile before it's too lateLet's wait awhile before we go too farRemember that special nightWhen all of the stars where shining brightWe made our first endeavorTo stay togetherWe made our very first promiseTo love, to share, and be real honestBut on that very first nightIt wasn't quite rightLet's wait awhile before it's too lateLet's wait awhile, our love will be thereLet's wait awhile before we go too farI didn't really know not to let all my feelings showTo save some for later so our love can be greaterYou said you would always love meRemember I said the same thing tooYou don't have to be frightened with my loveBecause I'll never give up on youLet's wait awhile, awhile before it's too lateYou know you can't rush loveLet's just take our timeWith love so good, we shouldn't rush itWe need to slow it down

HANGING BY A MOMENT
Desperate for changingStarving for truthI'm closer to where I startedI'm Chasing after youI'm falling even more in love with youLetting go of all I've held ontoI'm standing here until you make me moveI'm Hanging by a moment here with youForgetting all I'm lackingCompletely incompleteI'll take your invitationYou take all of me nowI'm falling even more in love with youLetting go of all I've held ontoI'm standing here until you make me moveI'm hanging by a moment here with youI'm living for the only thing I knowI'm running and not quite sure where to goAnd I don't know what I'm diving intoJust hanging by a moment here with youThere's nothing else to loseThere's nothing else to findThere's nothing in the worldThat can change my mindThere is nothing elseThere is nothing elseThere is nothing elseDesperate for changingStarving for truthI'm closer to where I startedI'm Chasing after youI'm falling even more in love with youLetting go of all I've held ontoI'm standing here until you make me moveI'm hanging by a moment here with youI'm living for the only thing I knowI'm running and not quite sure where to goAnd I don't know what I'm diving intoJust hanging by a moment here with youJust hanging by a momentHanging by a moment (here with you)Hanging by a moment (here with you)Hanging by a moment here with you.


IT AIN't OVER TIL IT'S OVER
Here we are, still togetherWe are oneSo much time wastedPlaying games with loveSo many tears i've criedSo much pain inside,But baby it ain't over 'til it's overSo many years we've triedTo keep our love alive,But baby it ain't over 'till it's overHow many timesDid we give up?But we always worked things outAnd all my doubts and fearsKept me wondering, yeahIf i'd always, always be in loveSo many tears i've criedSo much pain insideBut baby it ain't over 'til it's overSo many years we've triedAnd kept our love aliveCuz baby it ain't over 'till it's overSo many tears i've criedSo much pain insideBaby it ain't over 'til it's overSo many years we've triedAnd kept our love aliveCuz baby it ain't over 'till it's overSo many tears i've criedSo much pain insideBut baby it ain't over 'til it's overSo many years we've triedAnd kept our love aliveCuz baby it ain't over 'till it's overSo many tears i've criedSo much pain insideBut baby it ain't over 'til it's overSo many years we've triedTo keep our love aliveCuz baby it ain't over 'till it's over...Over....

a night of mishaps....

last nyt was not really a mishap for me... but a mishap for my friend porche... how i wish i cud be there all the way but i really can't... thank goodness she is okay... damages are only seen in her car... no broken bones or any wounds visible...well.. as i've said before things happen for a reason... but i don't know yet the main reason... why it did happen to her... sweetie.. u take a lot of ingat ok.. hehe:) well magpaka-conyo ba?! anyways.... i just wish i was there for her starting the accident.. but maybe HE has a plan for me too that night... :) well anyways... when i saw the guy who made damages to her car.. i was so irritat.... imagine they dont even want to call the MMDA for crying out loud.... it was raining last night and they are even planning to let her follow them to the port area.. would you believe that?!! anyways... all things needed to be settled was done last night... only a few papers left to be dropped by the police station...

f-r-i-e-n-d-s-h-i-p

The Key To Friendship..
Is Not In The Hand You Hold,
But How You Hold The Hand.
It's Not In The Tears You Dry,
But All The Reasons Why.
It's Not How You Make A Person Smile
But Whether Or Not It's WorthWhile.
It's Not In The Conversation,
But In The Way You Listen.
It's Not In The Laughter,
But What Comes Before And Everything After.
The Key To Friendship..
Is Not In Two People Relating,
But In Two Hearts Communicating.

Thank You For Being That Very Special Friend,
Who Understands The Key To Friendship,
And How To Unlock Everything Within.
Wherever You Go
Whatever You Do
No Matter Where Your Road May Lead
I Will Always Remember You
You Will Always Be A Part Of Me
You Touched More Than My Heart
You Reached My Soul
You Saw Me For Who I Am
It Was "ME" You Got To Know
When I Needed Someone To Listen
And To Understand
You Were Always There
You've Been A Friend
For Awhile
You Gave Me Life
You Made Me Smile
I Will Always Remember You.


When I feel as if I'm lost..
without an end in sight..
I look and there you are one step behind.

When I feel as though the world..
is bigger than my dreams..
I look and there you are right behind me.

When my biggest fear is failure..
and I see no way to win..
I look and there you behind me, my friend.

You're Always There!
That's What Friends Are Made Of!
All the things that I find precious,
special and unique...
Have found their way into a treasure box
where the memory and value will keep.
But you my friend, as special as your are...
are kept inside a much more loving place
deep inside my heart.
My heart holds many treasures
those with faces and with names..
where love for those close to me
will forever be sustained.

I'm thankful for you today and always
You came along when I needed you most
You held my hand,
You held me close
You showed me that tomorrow the sun will shine
And that life isn't bad all the time.
You gave me a hug when I needed it most
Whether it be virtual or real.
Somehow, you always seem to know
Just how I feel.
You gave me a shoulder to lean on
When I felt too weak to stand alone
You helped me see that I am strong,
And I'm never on my own.
For all that you do for me,
I am so very grateful.
And each night I find the brightest star
And thank God for giving me a friendwith such a caring heart

There's always a little glimmer of sunshine
On sad and dreary days...
There's always a blue sky
When rain clouds carry my hopes away...
There's always a song in my heart
When I'm feeling a little blue...
All because I have a friend as wonderful as you!

dancin all night long.....

well for some reason.... my girlfriends and i went out just to party and to chill.... supposedly we will also be meeting up with another girlfriend... but unfortunately it didn't happened... well it turned out okay and fun as well... i just wished she was there too... well as long as i know she is okay and happy that night... it's all good... :)

.........

it's been a long week for me... a very very tiring week.. i didn't have enough sleep for the whole week... basically it's my fault.. but it's just that.... i love going out late nights... it fascinates me when i'm out of the streets driving around the metro.... just looking for things to do and people to see... lots of changes in the city... it's almost near the "ber" months... but i can't still feel the warmth of xmas on my way.... well... it's just a begginning there would definitely be a lot of changes as the days turns into months....

My girlfriends @ my birthday!!!!

...from the usual birthday celebration that I used to have each year… I opted to spent it with mah girlfriends….if they only knew how happy I am…. Kinda creepy though… because for crying out loud we are all wearing green…. What a coincidence… but even though some people seem to make fun of us… in the back of our heads we are just trippin… hehehe J its like we are singing in a band for a gig that night… hehehe… well all is well with us though… but we are still lacking a few people… pebbles should be there but she still have work that time… Irene just gt home from school and has a test by the following day and korky was nowhere to be found.. at least… even for a night we bonded…. I love you guys!!!!!

AnOtHeR cHaPtEr In My LiFe……

Its just like yesterday that I’ve been longing for a lost friendship to be rekindled again… as time passes by I realize that small things should not be taken for granted… all misunderstandings should be settled as soon as possible…. All secrets would be revealed in time… nobody could take away the opportunity to know the real you…. The real you who is hiding beyond that mask that you always have in the palms of your hand… a little kid who is longing for love, attention and care that everyone should have in his/her lifetime…. Many things happened in my life for a couple of months now and i'm glad I’m over it…. With all the trials that I have surpassed in time….. I’m stronger and tougher now…. The old phoebe before was just a pretender… a great pretender I may say... she pretends that she could take everything in a stride… pretending to be happy even though she is not… pretending she is ok but believe me she is breaking into tiny pieces… but as we all say….. Our wounds will heal in time… but I also realize that losing somebody in your life doesn’t mean the end of everything… but only the end of one chapter in your life… and you have to move on…. As I turned a year older… the person that I’m longing for…. Was there for me …. I really don’t know what got into me… what got into me that I’m really looking forward in meeting her up that night….. well 1st to set things straight… then to talk about everything that has happened between us…. We may not be the best of friends for a few months... but I do believe that in time we could be at the same level or even better than before…. we know that we have our own faults and we are both sorry for everything… I just wish that it won’t happen again coz I don’t know what to do anymore if I’m going to lose another friend again in that same situation and for you.
 Thank you!!! You know who you are!!!!! 

as simple as it seem...

i thought everything was ok... and under control... but i guess i'm wrong this time.... i had a lot of questions going on my mind right now... how i wish i knew all the answers that i've been looking for... for the longest time... the most excruciating times in my life..... Thanks to my dear budz... who are always there to support me... well... i just wish that i could pass through it just like a breeze....